Lily of the Valley

I love this time of year.  Im busy, feeling high on the emerald green energy our nature is glowing of. Yesterday I took a fast lunch walk around the waste land and picked some flowers for my office. The fragrance is wonderful and coworkers smile and sniff in the air.
Have a lovely weekend dear fellows <3

Medieval fair

The annual medieval market in Leksand is a nice event to visit. Visitors and sellers dress up in beautiful appropriate clothes. Lots of fun things to buy and see. Tournaments, orchs, musicians, jesters and lot more.
I wore my newly bought Ewa i Walla skirt, with a simple tshirt. I was lucky that they had an temporary outlet in Falun.  Even though I was short of money I  had to take saved money and buy this skirt, a silk dress and trousers.
The necklaces are a women's utility knife and a cross i bought at the fair.

Happy World Goth Day

I spend a calm evening at home, sipping on some absinthe watching paranormal investigation series.  How do you spend this day?

Beige, fun or boring

I have a pair of beige ankle length trousers I feel comfortable in but they are a bit boring. Today I used them with a black top. To make it a bit less plain, I put on these grey dotted stockings and a pair of the thrift store shoes.

New shoes AGAIN!

My boots started to fall apart and I despretately needed nice everyday shoes. We were actually going to town to buy clothes for Oskar but when we passed the thrift store we took a peak inside. I found two nice and comfortable pairs. The pointy toes has a nice height of the heels and are very comfortable, they cost me  17€. The other pair has higher heels and rounder toes, cost me 12€. They both are like new. 

I even changed shoes in the store to have nicer shoes to walk in, I put on the pointy toes. Oskar asked, are you going to were theese now?? When I comfirmed, he declared that he refused to walk by my side. I know he want's me to look like every other mum, but I guess I would be embarrassing in anyway. 

The small guys bought shirts. At home Alfons had a lesson of how to fold a tshirt properly with me. Very instructive with step by step and stacking his new tshirts in an even pile (Alfons in a nutshell).

First picture of my new haircut. I wanted to dye it black before I posted a picture. I usually wear it with side part on the other side because I will grow my sideshave out (for the moment).

 I took this picture after running the errands in town with three boys in shopping spree (tiired). I am completely broke now but I couldnt resist to buy a pair of Star Wars shoes to G, my step son, angry birds bathing shorts to Alfons and the clothes I was supposed to buy for Oskar. 

Simple life

I have written about the cottage before, it’s the place were we really can relax and live a simple off grid life. No electricity and only cold water tap in the kitchen, except when it’s freezing. The cottage is very small, a room and a tiny kitchen. But it’s the perfect place to get energy and escape reality for a little while.

 We made sandwich toast in foil package in the stove for breakfast and discovered that the stove must be used for cooking more often. We have also a cooking stove in the kitchen.

The drawer under the old table, contains lots of old treasures and assorted knick knacks. This is how bandage looked in the old days. The leather cap seems perfect for my poor finger. It looked very used and inside it was a piece of bandage left so that was not an option for me.

Assorted buttons of different materials as glass, bone, mother of pearl, Bakelite and some rusty needles and a knife.

It wasn’t just the women that stayed here with the kettle, during the summer months in old times. Lots of tools for shaving is left here.

I think the Gillette box is fabulous with the purple velvet tucking.

Swedish steel shaving blade.

The ice on the lake is just about to melt. We took a nice walk along the beach to jump on the ice and fool around. This is the tiny beach just below our cottage.

Ice takes many forms.

The sandy beach is perfect for sand castles.

Fat lady on the beach. We argued if the paw prints in the sand (on the left side) came from a dog or a wolf. I said dog, but when I think of it I didn’t see any human footprints in the sand (and we're far from any house).

I tried Johans new gun. He wants’ me to take the course and license but I’m not very interested even if he says I have the talent.

Redneck “fika”. Vegan-sugarless-banana- bundt cake and melted chocolate served with a glass of Newcastle Brown ale. It was a nice combo (we forgot to bring the coffee). I imitated an owl howling in the woods and he answered me several times.

All in all we had a lovely weekend. Last night I slept for 12 hours with only a pee break at three o'clock enjoying the full moon light and those birds who sings at night.

A dark cloud has vanished

Suddenly the angst and the pressure on my shoulders is gone. No more sleepless nights, gnashing teeth and tensed muscles. No worries about if the kids are ok or my job situation. What a relief it is. I do hope there are a chance that my soul can be heal and no more self harm from now on.


My youngest have been badly treated by a teacher at school, last autumn. After reporting it to the principal she reported it to the Police. After providing testimony of all the involved we had to wait half a year for something to happen. During this time I have noticed a difference in my sons behaviour, he have been stressed and unstable. One of the remarkable things I noticed, was that his sense for orderliness was gone, no folded clothes on the chair at night and pieces of lego on the floor. It wasn’t until the Christmas vacation when I heard him singing and cleaning his room I felt that he was back on track again. He often told me that it was messy and loud in the classroom. We made the decision to change school during the Easter vacation.


He cried and didn’t want to leave his friends, but we insisted (and felt horrible). He was cheerfully greeted by his new classmates and made new friends very fast. He later said that it was very calm in his new class and no one interrupted one another and he also very proudly told his father that he worked in the same math book as the rest of the class now. J

The trial was last week. It was a bit weird with lying teachers, accusations and a very professional and clever prosecutor, asking tricky questions (even to me). But as the easy rule says: stick to the truth and you don’t have to remember what you said once. The judgement came a few days ago and it said convicted of assaults and unlawful threats, to pay indemnity to the victims (it was also another boy involved).


Imagine how the tattle goes on at school and among the parents, this is a school with 70 pupils, in a very small village. I’m so glad that I moved a couple of years ago but sorry for ex husband his new family and my friends that have been defending themselves against the gossip. And best of all, the kids don’t have to deal with it either.


As a parent you are fully aware of the negative sides of your child, I don’t see them as little angels. But a bad behaviour from a child is NOT a reason for an adult to behave the same way, or worse. Parents and teachers are authorities and should teach their kids to treat others with respect by showing them a good manner.


This is one of the things that have taken me down. I haven't been able/wanted to talk much about it for respect to those involved. I have cleansed my mind of other disturbancies as well, but perhaps more of that later. I can finally look forward and do the best of my future

Wishing you a lovely weekend.