Furious!!

I'm so angry my head is exploding. Things that are unfair makes me really furious. One thing I have been proud of about my country Sweden is that the system is supposed to be fair. The fairness for all, is sustained by taxes. Yes we pay a third of our wages to the taxes system, that seems a lot of money. But, those money are supposed to go to schools, healthcare, those who are too sick to be able to work, roads....many things that we basically need. If you get sick, you only pay a symbolic fee for your care at the hospital.

Our latest government will promote all of us that works hard and push people to work, even those who aren't able to do so. New rules in the social and healthcare system force cancer patients to go to work and refuse multi disabled people assistance with their basical needs.

The governments new budget for next year, gives us all who have a work a fifth discount on our taxes. That means it's the fifth time they will lower my tax wich will give me 40€ more every month. Those with very high wages will have their extra tax cut even more. So what does all those money mean for me? Well, nothing until I get sick, they say my childrens classes in school will be even bigger, or loose my job. Those extra money I will receive are taken from those who can't or don't have a job.

The attitude is that those who fails to get a job in time, or have diseases have to blame themselves. These are lazy, unhealthy people.
One arrogant lady said that "all those who complain, should give their money to funds and make a contribute by that way (if they get the extra money)". I asked her were the fund for workless, sick, and especially those who have been sick or without a job for too long that they have fallen out from the social security system are. Are those people supposed to be dependent on charity? Charity isn't granted just because you need it, right?

If they took off their soft lens glasses and looked how the world is. They would see that segregation breaks down countries.

Enough of this rant. I will join everyone else in voting for a new government next autumn, this one completely made fool of themselves. I will go and get my son at school now and keep on my studies and work.

Just some local history from the cemetary

What, already back for a post? Well one cannot crouch over books all the time, right? This thursday the local museum and the cemetary management arranged a historical walk around one of the cemetaries here. I kidnapped Johan and brought him there as a surprise. 

Here he is trying to hurry away from the camera.

The walk were so crowded that we returned yesterday to take better photos. The cemetary isn't very, old dated from the mid 18 hundreds. There is not many new graves either.

Due to last summers heavy raining, many stones are tilting and lots have fallen with the back or the face down. Grave stones in this size is very heavy and have actually caused a few deaths the last years when they accidentally have fallen on someone. To prevent more accidents the caretakers put tilted stones down. I actually saw some stones I rather would not go near.

Lots of the graves are for wealthier people. They made small yards in front of the stones with beautiful stoneworked walls around and carefully raked gravel (you wouldn't dare to thread).

Here's a picture from the walk. The man with suit and walking stick is supposed to represent one of the founders of the liberal party, Ernst Lyberg who were head of it during  1930-32, he were also minister of finance 1926. He was claimed for inhibiting a law against alcohol during that time and was claimed to split the party in two. 

There were many who were fighting for a law against alcohol back then, people whe looked down on those who took a single glass. Anyway, interesting thing I discovered yesterday was that the actors family were resting just beside were we stood (an unusual noble sirname). The other man on the photo above is our local historian.

I love the stone carving on this stone. I took the photo in an angle so the names won't be shown. Even if there are lots of celebrities resting here there are also new buried common people, and that must be respected.

By this square block lies one of the pioneers in swedish radio. In the beginning of the twenties, sweden didn't have an all over broadcasting, but many local radiostations, supported by enthusiasts. There were no radios available for purchase but you could build one yourself with some electrical skills. 

Falu rundradio were financed by advertising and foundations and held a high standard for that time, like live orchesteras, scientifical and cultural lectures and of course church services.

 At 1925 when Swedish broadcast were taking over all the local radiostations, they were supposed to send from Falun at new years eve. When they switched to Falun. All they could hear was a loud party going on, with clinking glasses, cheers and singning. In Stockholm they didn't understand that joke and switched off the broadcast by telling there was a technical issue (as I said that was a time when drinking or loud behaviour wasn't acceptable by some).

A part of the graveyard with smaller less pretentious stones. One just said a first name, nothing else. We found another two stones, not beside each other but a little apart, one said "mother" and date and the other said "father" and date. Things like that puzzles me.

The cemetary lies between a heavy trafficked road and the railway depot. Here you can see how close it is. An abandoned wagon and a stone.

I have a friend who lives just by this cemetary and she oftens prefer to take the path through it before using the sidewalk at night.

We don't have any ugly cemetaries were I live but I think this one is one of the most beautiful. The trees and hegdes are so hight that the busyness is closed out from this peaceful place.

A grave surrounded by a fir hedge. Creating a sealed space.

One of the fashions were apparently to plant two or three thujas around the stone. By the time they overwhelmed the stone by growth and the keepers have to cut a hole in the green mass for the stone.

This is not a tomb for a world known celebrity but the man who influenced this area of the country in a very positive way. He were an engineer and pioneer in new technologies and build several of the large factories in this area. Paper and steel mills etc. He also built schools for workers children. 

He and his wife got only one child that died in a very young age. Without any children they wrote in their will that their private belongings would start a foundation for school students. 

Almost everyone have gotten a small amount from this fund by their highschool degree (so have I) and I saw at Alfons school large crates with books with his name on.

 During the walk the light was very vague when we arrived to the grave so I took a photo of it in daylight for the details. Erik Johan Ljungberg designed in the his own tomb(in a mixed national romance style) before he died 1915. If you look closely you can see a glowing light in the holes at the copper gate

This lovely angel stands on a high red stones with several names written in gold (some new names therefore no picture of it). I beleive that it symbols the little boy who drowned at 4 years age and is the first name on it. 

Another young man, the boys brother,buried here had a funeral with 10 000 people attended. He was the pilot that flew Dag Hammarskjöld (general secretary for UN during the cold war)that night when the plane was shot down, crashed.....whatever the speculations goes, some even say that the pilot had a hangover but that was not a popular thread. The plain crash is still a mystery.

I supposed the one who were buried here had a more humble burial. The cross have no visible name but stands not far away from the one above.

This post took a while to write so I have been away from my books for too long now. I have a plan for my studies something that hopefully will take me in another direction. Right now I study a math course, the math is easy but it is about teaching math...

Studying

So, autumn is here with cool and crisp air. Every morning, my routine is to check the thermometer to see if there has been any frost that tells the growing season is over. Unfortunately I will not have time to enjoy the nature for a long while now. I joined university again, studying math education. 

I’m really stressed about it because I came in the group almost two weeks late. No books, no information about study groups etc, so there’s hard work to be done.  At the same time I will fix my job and my family, phew.

To find a space for myself I had to turn the studio in the basement to a study. It’s freezing cold there but at least I have a door to close.

For the rest of this year I will be very absent from you, dear readers. Bye!

With the sound of whispering trees

I feel blessed having a garden when it’s time for harvest. I spend a lot of time in the garden, in the forest and in the kitchen these days. There is so much to take care of. The green summer apples gives the best mashed apple jam, light in color and fresh in taste. The other red autumn apple tree gives the best apples for juice, amber, sweet and aromatic. The third apple tree isn’t quite finished it will ripe after first frost, which is I guess within a week.

I save seeds from almost all my vegetables, it is easier that you could think, and gives you free veggies. I grow some species that are very difficult to find, like the blue peas and the grey peas. The grey peas were grown by the Vikings and the people before them. A turnip from the village nearby that is impossible to find in commercial stores, the white mild tasting one.  I also have seeds from other side of the planet; a kidney bean bought at a market in Rajma, India, it grows well here. My newest gift are two sorts of bell pepper from Serbia, that a coworker got for me. My favorite tomatoes are the Russian ones, that gives a good harvest without a green house.

We took the car to a place where we can find lots of berries in the forest this Sunday. We only picked a few liters of each blueberries and lingonberries, the picnic was more important because we already have a lot of berries left from last year. A few of the family members, the oldest kids and I, stopped by a creek to explore a waterfall and a beautiful place in the forest. Unfortunately the creek was almost dry but I found water mint to pick and dry for tea. I have to return when the water is high to take photos of the waterfall. Even if it was little water we could spot some shy fishes  hiding away as we walked around.

Just a simple thing as picking apples lifts my mood to a higher level. I still suffer from depressive thoughts but doing my job in the garden make me feel real and useful.

Festival weekend

We visited our local festival this weekend; Sabaton Open Air or Rockstad Falun (as it was called before). There were no particular bands I wanted to see or no band that left a special moment feeling in me except Sabaton itself. 

But anyway it's a nice festival to visit. Happy people, no fights and well organised.  There were many families with children and I'm thinking of bringing my boys for one of the days next year.  Alfons would love to see Sabaton. I bought him a band tshirt to comfort him instead this year.

Crystal Viper, a polish band were playing with so much energy that I ended up just smiling, even if they didn't play my kind of music.

I found a bottle of purple semi-permanent dye that I tried. It was far more close the colour that I wanted but not enough :P

I bought Illamasquas dark metallic green lipgloss. Even if It was wery rich in pigment it ended up very transparent on the lips just looking weird. Black lipstick didn't work either. Black eyeliner worked better but it wasn't enough. If I had to apply a covering layer it would been dripping from my mouth.

I don't bother you with the bad noncovering lipstick so this photo above is just from instagram with filters and bla bla.

I made this flower brooch a year ago ca. With a hairpin it worked nice as a decoration to a simple ponytail. A little of the glitter has fallen off, so I'll have to mend it.

I did a big mistake the first night and used heels. They weren't looking very nice after that night. It was one of the flea market shoes so they werent expensive.

I used fake converse the rest of the weekend with extra in soles and changed laces to silk ribbons. 

Stuffed handbag from Restyle (I carried my jacket in it + everything else one need)

Underskirt worn as a skirt from Insomnias Attic (I used leggings under fyi)

Lovely fireworks in the end of Saturday night.

Bat fit update.  I tried to run a few times during the vacation, it felt wonderful and it did wonders to my heavy body. BUT. My knees sounded like cornflakes and have started to hurt :(. Just because you have been able to run before, theres no guarantee that your body can later. Damn! I have to find another way to stay in shape. Every other morning I set the alarm a lot earlier than I'm used to and take a morning walk together with Johan. These mornings are beautiful with soft mist by the river.

I arrive at work fresh as a peach. But when it's time to go home I soo tired!

Not quite the right colour

I was supposed to take better care of my hair after I cut it, but nope, can't call myself a patiant person. I so would like to have purple hair, even if I really dont dare. But scanning the shelfes of hairdye and asking Alfons wich haircolour he would suggest for me, he pointed at this one.

Yay, purple you said? Eh, no, actually mum, I was pointing at this one (pointing on the one beside, more red colour). But it was too late for him to change and me too. But to get that vibrant colour I needed some bleach as well. A package that tells that gives blond hair even to dark brown. Pha! This is the result after bleaching the roots once and the tops twice. The carrot colour faded after a long sunny weekend.

So then time for that purple colour.....
You are wrong L'oréal!My hair didn't get that "pure purple" haircolour as the parcel tells! 

Well at least I can go to work without too many turning heads. I'm having my last vacation days now, I have truly grasp the opportunity to rest, really rest. 

Maybe in the right colder light you could say purple....

Having luck sometimes

Today I'm just showing a few things I have won in other bloggs giveaways. Last winter, almost about my birthday I was lucky to win a make up case in Sandys giveaway. She got it from the etsy store Book of shadows. And that's what it is a book case for eyeshadows.

Lots of people are scared or disgusted by spiders. I don't have any such problems, thinking they are interesting creatures.

You must go and read her blog it is beautiful, and so interesting to read. I got Glastonbury at my "Places to visit-list" now. Arsenic and old lace

Another giveaway I won was at Jema Rose. The winner was even able to pick the kind of gifts she wanted. Jewellery with a theme. Of course I chosed owls :). And I got these earrings, soo cute! I wear them lots! The  earcuff is a cool one a back with ribs, it sits nice and sturdy but I'm afraid to loose it so I will attach a chain and ear stud to it, but first I have to get another piercing in my ear. Jema is anything but boring, her home is always changing, always something creative and new. Jema Rose

It's never too early to plan for Halloween. Little gothic Horrors beautiful giveaway was lots of spooky labels and witch postcards. Oh I cant wait to use theese labels! The postcards will be saved as they are. I will hang them in my postcard display when autumn comes.

Little Gothic Horrors blog is fun and amusing. Her role model is Morticia (how I wish I was a patient mother and wife like her) and write lots of interesting facts about the actors in the Addams family.

Ive been thinking and talking about a giveaway loong ago now. I have something extraordinary I've been working on and off. It's not finished yet. The meaning was to have a giveaway at my 6 year blogaversary and for reaching 100 followers, but I ran out of time, spring came and called me outdoors. 

The garden and then vacation interrupted my work. I have gotten burned in the back of the knees (stupid me) while lying on the beach....

(low tide at Van)

 and I checking the apple trees almost every day to check how the apples are doing. I have never had so many apples in our trees before. Every crop wants their weather and this summer had the weather for beans and apples

Summer apples, transparante blance.

winter apples

autumn apples.